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Thursday, November 19, 2009
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......ever wonder what it feels like to score super well in the toughest paper in your semester? feels good right? not for me... i scored super well for my final toughest paper with the help of an exact past year paper beside me with 100% correct answers.. reason beaing? it was a controlled paper in that open book exam and it should not have been released to us... tambah la lagi one of my lecturer realised what happen during the exam.. she came to me took the past year paper and then shakes her ehad and pats me on the back saying ' dont worry... teacher wont punish you.. its not your fault.. just focus on the exam and do your best' *compassionate look* then walks away... walaoeh! imagine that guilt and aweful feeling that hits me... tho i finish my 2 hour paper in 30 minutes.. i was emoing for the next 90 minutes T_T. so many things hit me... what if... my lecturer that released this paper got fired? what if this exam paper became void and everyone has to come back and retake another time? what if...? what if...? so yeah...right after the paper people were rejoicing shouting and jumping around.. but i just walked down and ber-emo standing next to the corridor watching the rain drops falling on the ground... GG now it sounds like some love story scene... =.=

so yeah...when i reflect upon this .. i thank God i still have the guilt feeling compared to the rest.. tho yes i will surely score super well for this subject... i didnt get that satisfaction of completing that paper with my own effort and there are going to be so many people will high distinctions. what to do right? some call it God's blessing.. but i see it from another pint of view as in it might a test from God... so what if i really will to just not use that past year paper and totally rely on my own abilities(which i did not really studied!)... what would the outcome be?

... but in the end i still used that paper la.... =.='

that aside.. now that exams are over.. time to focus on christmas~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
events! performances! Baby Jesus!!!!

JapBoyRockS blogged at 10:00:00 AM 0 comments

Thursday, November 12, 2009
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....its the hello exams period where life seems so......... boring... all about that few hours sitting in the freezing chamber, trying to crap everything that you remembered out on that few sheets of paper.....Ahhh well.. in the midst of all these stressful exams and stuff...

theres still moments like these where God's amazing creation makes me relax.... =)