Sunday, December 19, 2010
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since this blog has been dead for sometime now, hopefully theres no more people following
its been a while since i blogged.


hmmm...recently things have been a lil shaky for me, i'm starting to wonder.. is there a problem with me?
why do i feel so rejected at times?
wheres the super confident me?
why do i suddenly feel this way?
why is everything not going my way?
or even..why is everyone against me?
zzz...there are moments where i feel there is something wrong with me..its not a self blaming thing. its just perhaps i fail to see that there is nothing wrong with the world or anyone else but me?
feels like i'm walking through a road in which there are enemies from all over that are charging towards me and no one understand.. why?

Have i not been good enough? or perhaps maybe i'm meant to be like this the way i am now.
i dont know.. i reallt dont know.. all i know now is that i hate this feeling i'm feeling.

i need a fresh start, things are so complicating now. i feel that i'm so complicated now.
feels like as if i've lost myself in the process of trying to be a better person..or have i quit trying to be a better person in which it has resulted to this?
maybe i should just let everything go.. but then again it would make me look like a quitter..
and i dont wanna be a quitter, leave everything when things becomes tough.. oh man.. i hate this..

God, of all people..You know me best inside out...so can You pls say something?
which part of me is not right? can u please help me correct it?


I NEED TO FIX MYSELF


JapBoyRockS blogged at 8:33:00 PM 0 comments
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