C h i s s e l e d W o r d s

.: wao! its the end of august already! :.

2011-08-29T18:17:00.000+08:00

its two months since i've started working now.its been a very challenging month for me.

its a month with mixed feelings,
there were times where it makes me regret things i've done in the past,
times where it makes my heart pound super fast,
times where it felt like the end of the world,
and of course there were also times where i feel super grateful and thankful that i have God.

just the other day my colleagues told me that i'm different. in the sense that i'm not like any other normal joe.
they said that i'm a very patient, honest and humble.
I was just being myself all these while, i didnt try to be anyone else.
I'm glad that they can see such qualities in me.

I thank God really, because if it wasnt for Him, i believe i wont be the person i am today.
I'm not saying i have reached the ultimate good christian, but at least i can see changes, good changes for now at least. Lets just hope this will continue to grow in me and that i will be a good example for my colleagues. That i'll not be conformed to the standards of this world, that i'll continue to live by God's standard even when tougher time comes.

hmmm..i also really thank God, as i was driving this morning, it was raining, all the sudden both the back tyres of my car swung to my right was i was making a left turn which almost made my car did a 360 degree spin, I really thank God for protecting me, my heart definitely skipped few or more beats. Phews!

Apart from that, i've had moments where i feel totally emotional and empty inside. still suffering the side effects i guess, really takes time. But for now i have to just tahannnnnnnnnn..

thats all for now! seriously gtg! ever since i start working, barely have time to really have time for myself! lets just hope this week of raya holidays can make it up for it! GBU!

.: Trust :.

2011-07-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

Trust.thats one very big word.
i've come to realise something about myself, i just dont share.
I will always listen to people problems, but when it comes to me, all i share are surface stuff.
perhaps things in the past really has left its mark on me.
when i come to look at it.

i grew up in a family which teaches us the values money over anything else.
'to survive, you have to be smart, cheat or be cheated, lie if you have to'

i grow up in a purely chinaman business background family. A family in which brothers fight with brothers for wealth. In my shoes, its uncles and aunties which backstab each other, quarell and cheat for the sake of wealth. Out of all my uncle and aunties, my dad is considered the least cunning amongst all. And when i say least cunning, it means he doesnt do a super con business, instead his business are largely related with bribing and forging documents. Up till this very day i'm still faced with these kinda stuff.

Over the years i've grown in this condition till i'm semi immune to it. Perhaps maybe thats one of the reason why i grow numb to feelings and things very easily.
As a kid, i have countless experience with friends breaking trusts, back stabbing cases, the best of all, outcasted.
As much as i show or carry myself to be look 'ok'
Deep down inside i know i'm not, well..i guess i've learn the art of compressing everything inside and just contain it and show that i'm super alright.

I remember about two years ago, when i was going through a very tough time, i didn't even share my problem with someone which i know really cared for me throughout these years. Well, the person only got to know probably 8 or 9 months later.

In my family, i don't share with them. In fact i just realise this last weekend when someone asked 'how are you when ur at home with ur family?'
i'm a total different person when i'm at home, i dont talk much, i dont share much, i just keep quite and do my own stuff. I dont share because i feel i wont being any help, in this case its my mom. Life's been hard on our family since like 10 years ago or even more.. especially my mom. My dad is definitely not an easy to go with person. He has no patience, a bad temper, super bad financial management and he just doesnt listen. To him, everything he says goes, even if he says something now and says something else which is totally contradicting 2 minutes later, he's still right. I remember my mom crying and telling me many times over the years 'if its not for you kids, i would have settle for a divorce with your dad a long long time ago'
So i guess that is why naturally i wont share with her because life is already so hard for her, my as well just listen to her, let her release rather than add more problems and stress.

When i really look back at all this situations, it only comes to one thing, i can't seem to open up and trust anymore. The 'swallow it down and compress it' action automatically kicks in everytime. Now its not just about swallowing it down. It has already affected me, i've kinda lost my confidence in things i do. I'm still figuring how to gain it back, really.

But you see, God is just..being God all the time. With everything i've just said, just the other day someone was giving an advice, saying that we should really find someone whom we really can trust and confide in. Someone whom we know whom watches our back and is ready to be there for us and correct us if necessary.

Yes i have to admit. There are moments in which i feel that i might even fall out from trusting God.
But i know, it is in the toughest moments in my life where God seems to be the strongest and most evident. So i guess for now, just persevere and have a faith. Start really opening up to ppl whom i feel i can trust. Theres nothing much i can do anyways.

.: New chapter already? :.

2011-07-01T16:15:00.000+08:00

So...this is it.A new beginning of another chapter in my life, the working life.

This is like the final week where i'm slacking & bumming around, really having fun and spending time with friends, do what i like without worrying about tomorrow. Coz come monday, everything's about to change.
Waking up at 6am in the morning will be a norm.
Getting pissed at our traffic conditions & trying not to curse at our public transportation effeciency will be an obvious.

I really dont know what to feel, should i feel nervous? afraid? excited? hahaha
all i know is i have to really make a stand,
start humble always in every situation, strive to make sure i'm of God's standards and not of the world's. That i will not fall into the category of work > God...so plsplsplspls help me always be on track oh Lord!

As for my final exam paper result, i've tried my best, no matter what the outcome of that paper is, I will still choose to thank God for everything.

Play time is over Jap,
time to buck up and strive for a better living! =D

2011-06-03T00:55:00.000+08:00

Time really plays a factor when it comes to healing.I thought i was like totally over things. But now when i come to look back, it still hurts as it comes and goes like a strong gush of wind that occasionally gushes through.

owh well, guess this time its really gonna take a while,
on a short note! its the time of the year again..church camp.
this year, i'm going to church camp with an expectation in which i wanna experience God on a whole different level plus i need spiritual and emotional healing from Him. Good place for a breakaway.
The sun, the sea, the music, the crowd, the time to get all emo and stare into nothingness as your mind wonders. I shall =)

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2011-05-15T19:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes in life, people refuse to let go of things that are most dear to them. One of those 'people' i mentioned happens to be me. Over these 8 months, i've held on to something very very dear and precious to me so so hard, clinging onto it so so tightly that even if it hurts me and cuts me deep inside, i just wouldnt let go.
I've lied, created quite a havok in my family and neglected things & people around me that really cares for me just to make sure i dont lose this something that i thought i have then or now...had.

But you see, God is still God no matter what,
No matter how hard i try to hold on and resist. In the end, God will still win because He is in control.
Yes the pain of letting go is even more painful than the pain of holding on to it. Trust me.
But i know God's ways are higher and even if i dont agree with His ways, i'll just submit and listen.

I dont blame anyone for anything but myself for being naive and stubborn in a way, funny when i think back, over the past 3 months, the whole world have been advicing me to let go, and yet i still choose to still cling and held it to me even closer. The more people said no the more i said yes. haha!

Honestly i'm still recovering from it, and i have to slowly drop all the emotional baggage i'm carrying that will affect me and i know it will also affect others. For now, i just slowly take my time to rebuilt whatever i've neglected, let time and God do His healing work, learn to forgive and ask for forgiveness to those whom i have hurt or offended during those 8 months.

To those who i have neglected or offended:

Forgive me for neglecting you,
I thank you for still being there for me even tho i've neglected you
I'm really blessed that i have you around me.
Gimme some time & i'll be back

To you <3:

Perhaps you are right when you said i'm rude, i not patient enough with you,
I'm asking too much from you & i dont understand what love really is.
Well, you are free now, I'm setting you free and i'm sorry for all the pain i've caused you.
I'm not gonna force or put any expectations on you anymore,
I forgive myself and i forgive you.
I'll continue to pray for you and pray that you will forgive me too.
No one knows whats gonna happen in the future, but for now i'm letting you go...
Well, if our paths shall meet again, then it really is God's will.
If it doesnt, then all we have are memories that will i hope make you smile =)
<3

Ok stop guessing, yes its a relationship, blind person also can see i'm talking about a relationship. =.=

2011-05-10T14:25:00.000+08:00

I've just been called rude, immature, impatient and not understanding enough. I truly understand now how much it really takes. i realised i'm experiencing a burnout in giving in already. ever got the feeling no matter how much u give and its still not good enough?
ouch it really hurts this time.

this time i really does, perhaps i'm just not ready for all these.
owh well.. i'm over the season of giving for now..altho having said its not just about calculating how much you give etc.. forget bout it.. dont wanna bother already.. sien

2011-04-27T11:49:00.000+08:00

'actions speaks louder than words'
a statement as simple as this carries alot to it.

we can talk all we want, but if we dont walk the talk, it really shows
i was talking to someone just the other day and we touched on the topic of priorities in our lives.
its funny when you can tell someone how important someone or something is and yet not show any importance and priority.

it really shows huh? people can claim dat its important, but at the same time it can be delayed till they are free and they feel its convenient for them to handle it. In case if you are wondering, i'm talking about conflicts and missundertandings.

If we truly treasure a frienship, when conflict arise, what do we do?
natural thing is to solve it. but in some cases in which i'm experience and also observe, people say this or that friend is very important to them and yet when you see them getting either into a missunderstanding and conflict with that someone, they choose to just leave it till they feel convenient to solve it.
i cannot brain this, really.. teach me pls?

I don't know, but i feel for me, as long as there is a conflict or missunderstanding, it should be solved right away, yes given the fact people need time to cool down, let the fire in them subside and stuff, and then deal with it, but then again, i believe if we are mature enough, we should be able to handle it well.

either ways, conflicts can have two possible outcomes, you either grow closer after the conflict is resolved, or you stay apart and keep you distance... you decide with the other person.

2011-04-11T23:09:00.002+08:00

talked to someone the other day,

it was quite an interesting topic,
the person said,
do you realise that nowadays for the younger generation, we build our own personal dreams and lives first till we're like kinda established and then in the end just add in a life partner into our lives. Compared to our parents generation. they both come together and build thier dreams together.

wow..when i heard that, i really ask myself..am i gonna be in the same category as what my friend had just mentioned. Am i gonna be the one who will just have my own dreams and work towards it and then when the age and time is right, just add someone in my life and get married.
o.0!

kinda materialistic when i think of it. Yes people nowadays, especially girls look for security, for stability in the financial area. Given the fact which girl doesnt wanna get married to a man with strong financial backings. its totally understandable..But then again, if i look it at this way, wow-ness, that would really cut out alot of girl choices in my life, as for me..i want someone who will go through thick and thin with me even before marriage, not only considers me when my financial groundings are stable.

The status issue will always occur in a relationship.
one will be richer than another,
But this is it, is the more blessed one willing to get down to the level of the other?
Or the more blessed one will just sit and wait for the poorer one to get richer then only considers it?
haha.. really something to think about..
As for me, i really pray and wish for someone that come down to my level, dah la i'm not born with a silverspoon, if my other half tekan me with money issue..confirm the relationship's not gonna be very fun-ning! haha..
Money is something, but it isnt everything! =)

2011-03-28T21:31:00.001+08:00

why do i sometimes feel like a doormat?

is it normal to feel this way? =.=

hmmmmm

2011-03-13T21:45:00.003+08:00

perhaps, it really is true..people do come from different worlds, the richer and the not so rich.

and its hard to match up to standard to be on par with everyone. the gap will always be there. but dont get me wrong, it doesnt always mean poor = bad = sad.

these few month really though me something, dat is..you dont have to compare urself to someone richer and dat in the end will only make you feel so small and useless. being poor isnt so bad.

not to say i am poor. but just average..u know.. just enough to fill my stomach, have a lil to enjoy the little things dat doesnt cost so much but its equally super fun.

i've learnt to be contented with things, not to say i'm being mediocre or not striving for the better. but just you know, if u cant carry dat kind of standard in your live. just dont. instead, thank God for the little things i have. As for me, i still have a house to live in, i have good friends, i have a church which is ever supportive and no matter where i am. I still have God with me! =D

many of us chase dreams, living standards, stuff dat we cant really afford. in the end..haha.. in the end for me..i almost defeated myself in almost everything i wanted to do. its like semi depression, i mentally killed myself even before i tried to do anything.

The negativity that i had almost made me a failure in life. affects my thinking, actions, spending, relationship, and also serving.

I guess this all starts when i lived in my fantasy & dreamy world and then finally realize dat its a dream i'm living in. like someone said to me recently "time to wake up jap. you deserve far so much better in life"

hmmmm...nice topic to really ponder upon...

2011-02-20T19:26:00.003+08:00

the truth hurts,

as much as i want to see a light of hope in this whole situation,

as of now, it really seems as if this road ahead is so dark,

its so dark that i cant see my own fingers,

at the rate it is, its really pushing and forcing me to quitting end,

an end where i have no choice but to give it up.

people closest to me rejects it,

it really feels like i'm already in a pit and still someone threw me a shovel asking me to dig myself deeper,

it really does feel that way.

i dont blame them for seeing things this way,

but still.. cant i just get juz a little encouragement?

or at least..dont give a comment that is so negative about it?

already things havent been exactly smooth sailing these past months,

and i'm hearing more and more negative remarks and feedbacks about it.

seriously, what have i not done or tried?

i tried my best, tried both extreme ends,

dug a pit for myself, and then crawled out of it to built a tower of hope for myself,

and the tower of hope that i build is now slowly sinking back in a deeper pit than before, its like a pit where so deep where i cant see its ending,

so its either i quit or i jump in that pit to take the risk that at the bottom of that pit, hoping that there will be a tunnel dat leads back to where i can see the light again.

God, You havent really spoken or gave me a definite answer,

coz if You have, i would have known what to do..or even maybe... i wasnt listening? was i blinded by the whole situation?

GOSH...drama after dramas, situations after situations, crisis after crisis, problems after problems,

is this what you call life?

2011-02-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

its been two years!
when i read what i posted two years ago, it really made me smile..haha
guess i was really young and naive then i suppose..
wow.. time really flies..
the ups and downs,
the good and bad,
joy & tears..
lots have happen, loads have changed..
whether or not things are moving towards the better, or even for the worse..
i see something so magnificent over these years,
You are always there to pull me out from the pit i have either fallen in or my self made pit.
thank You..really..
I know You have Your plans for me,
the right path, right person, right this and that.
I'm waiting for them, one at a time okay? =)

2011-02-05T21:24:00.002+08:00

alright, i'm officially caught in the middle.
no i'm not being pessimistic over things, its juz that problems comes in like the raging seas..zzz
so many forces seems to wanna tear things apart.. so...what now?

2011-01-16T16:44:00.002+08:00

ever had the feeling that no matter what you do, how you try, you just dont feel that you are good enough?

i do recently.. again and again this feeling comes, no matter how hard i tried to push this feeling away..
since when have i become so pessimistic, seriously..wheres the ever confident me? where is he..seems like he's no where to be found in me nowadays..

i guess its gotta do with letting go of the past and really moving foward now. If God is a God of second chances den i should at least work towards that, even if i fail it doesnt matter, as long as i gave my best, i tried my best, played my part..then even if i am not good enough then..theres no one else to blame..guess this thought helps in times like these..

if things weren't as complicated as it is now

2010-12-27T12:01:00.003+08:00

i remembered it being simple and nice,
where it was all fun and no worries,
where its got nothing to do with others,
where everything was so positive..

then came the what if's,
then came what others think,
than came thinking too much,
then came expectations..

now it seriously got me thinking,
have i lost it?
have we lost it?
complicatedness kills =/

2010-12-19T20:33:00.002+08:00

since this blog has been dead for sometime now, hopefully theres no more people following
its been a while since i blogged.

hmmm...recently things have been a lil shaky for me, i'm starting to wonder.. is there a problem with me?
why do i feel so rejected at times?
wheres the super confident me?
why do i suddenly feel this way?
why is everything not going my way?
or even..why is everyone against me?
zzz...there are moments where i feel there is something wrong with me..its not a self blaming thing. its just perhaps i fail to see that there is nothing wrong with the world or anyone else but me?
feels like i'm walking through a road in which there are enemies from all over that are charging towards me and no one understand.. why?

Have i not been good enough? or perhaps maybe i'm meant to be like this the way i am now.
i dont know.. i reallt dont know.. all i know now is that i hate this feeling i'm feeling.

i need a fresh start, things are so complicating now. i feel that i'm so complicated now.
feels like as if i've lost myself in the process of trying to be a better person..or have i quit trying to be a better person in which it has resulted to this?
maybe i should just let everything go.. but then again it would make me look like a quitter..
and i dont wanna be a quitter, leave everything when things becomes tough.. oh man.. i hate this..

God, of all people..You know me best inside out...so can You pls say something?
which part of me is not right? can u please help me correct it?

I NEED TO FIX MYSELF

2010-07-25T21:05:00.002+08:00

dear abandoned blog, i am so sorry for abandoning you, its cause i've been really occupied with stuff for the past 5 weeks, having fun!

classes started again, so you can take pride to know that i might be whinning about it here again! hahahaha!

anyways, God has been really good to me, the amazing and memorable moments, the sad and unglorifying ones too, thank You Lord for each and every of those moments because i know its all because You love me! =DDD

2010-07-07T09:13:00.001+08:00

i wanted to blog about something, but when i loaded this page..i forgotten what i wanted to say..
zzzz! anyways, i'm enjoying my holidays now...hehe! going places, doing all the fun stuff and eating great food.. which also means... spending money..heh.. any sponsors? =D

2010-06-20T01:20:00.001+08:00

exams are over and yet, this is one semester where i feel most confident over a paper and also most afraid over a paper... T_T!

i pray dat God you take some marks form the paper that i am super confident and transfer it over the the paper in which i'm most afraid... pls pls pls pls with some extra prayer on top pls pls

2010-06-11T16:15:00.003+08:00

sometimes knowing too much doesnt actually make you wiser, it just makes u draw a conclusion and perception on someone even faster...
hmmm.....

2010-06-04T00:54:00.002+08:00

Its funny how God works, its always funny, coz in every situation if God can work something out, whether it is through a conflict, a missunderstanding, a joke, a this and a that, if you use your heart and look at it with guidance from above, you will be able to see things so much clearer, knowing what is the right next move etc...ahhh.. ur just amazing =)

.: Its been a while.. :.

2010-05-25T18:45:00.004+08:00

Read at your own risk, stuff here might be a little... hehehe... not pleasing to the eye and mind.

Its never easy to forget something that has affected you in the past,
especially when it comes to people..
its like a past that haunts you, whether it might be that hurting feeling, anger, regrets, guilty, dissapointment or any other feelings you can think of.

True, people say that only time can heal..but its a no no to me, i've come to see it to a point that if it is our mistake, yes admit it, ask for forgiveness and then.. the next step really, is to not sink in your hurt, anger, regrets, guilty, dissapointment or any other feelings you can think of kinda feelings. Cause really it will continue to haunt you right till you decide to let it go, forgive yourself and not cling unto it anymore.. Many times we tend to blame ourselves for what has happened, allow unrelated people's thoughts and perceptions to affect how we feel, how we are and how will things become..
Isnt this pleasing people? trying to make sure that people's perceptions and impression towards us are good and pleasing to the eye. I mean, you cant really please everyone if you dont already know..

The other thing dat really annoys and dissapoints me when this kinda stuff happens in church, yes let me emphasize, church. I realise that people in church tend to officially be more judgemental, we tend to quickly pass judgement to others before looking at ourselves. Trying to make decisions for others when its not ours to make, Yes concern might be the word form the other point of view, but there comes a time where we have to realise that it has become us trying to decide for others when it initially started as a concern and caring thought. having said all these, isnt the church suppose to be the one that accepts everyone for who they are? Yes there is that other side where it says that the outside world doesnt judge you because they dont really care what you become, therefore they accept you for who you are...which means... who cares if you dissapear tomorrow... but still......
I admit that i am also guilty in these at times. So why in the world are we, as a church so quick to judge, so superly fast draw a conclusion on someone and then not only we're not helping but eventually makes the situation worse for those of them who are affected... pfft..now thats something that we all should really do a self check to see where we are..

What i believe? is that it doesnt matter what you do or decide or anything lah.. as long as its right before God's eyes and i'm sure myself what exactly am i doing, i dont really care what others think of conclude about me. Why allow people's negative perception and judgement affect how i am and how i feel? and there is also no need to stand up and defend for myself.. Coz someone once told me that all truth will be revealed as time passes. =)

Ps. i'm not emo or whatsoever, its just a thought dat came across my mind. Having posting this do bear in mind that things happen differently in different situation involving different people, so results may vary..dats if you get what i meant..hehe! Also note that i'm typing without really filtering.. its my thoughts man...of course there are many acpects to look at it and i am looking at it from this point of view at this moment of time so you faham faham la..

pps. kalao i kena counselling or asked to remove this post memang daisei

2010-05-25T12:00:00.001+08:00

F for flower...

anyone needs one? =)

2010-05-22T02:52:00.002+08:00

too busy to blog.. exams are around the corner..
and i'm feeling a little bit on the slacking side now.. =.='
and also running dry on creative juices these past few weeks........when i need em most...
mr. creativity...please come back to me!

2010-05-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

yes life has been very stressful lately..with all the workload and stuff..really makes me a not so happy go lucky.. but thank God He is ever faithful.. turning everything around! nno..the fact that there is still so much work to be done.. i'm facing it with a better mood and attitude ..not so negative anymore..=)

..and also i've learned that when it comes to settling a conflict or missunderstanding.. always put yourself in that person's position before doing anything dat would make u regret doing it =))

what else? um...yeah and apart from God, thank you, you and also you for the advices, time and also being there for me =D

2010-05-04T19:20:00.007+08:00

Life is full of uncertainties, just yesterday all the sudden i was feeling so terrible, all the sudden i feel like there is nothing that i feel confident and comfortable about, my studies, my future, my relationships, my everything.... its the feeling where something keeps on giving u the signs to just give everything up.

and all the sudden this song just played on my phone..

"Trust, trust in the Lord,
Lean not on your own understanding,
In all, all of your ways acknowledge Him,
He'll make your paths straight.."

and then there was this next song that played directly after the first one..

"No mountain,
No valley,
No gain or loss we know,
Could keep us from Your love

No sickness,
No secret,
No chain is strong enough,
To keep us from Your love,
To keep us from Your love

How high,
How wide,
No matter where I am,
Healing is in Your hands,
How deep,
How strong,
Now by Your grace I stand,
Healing is in Your hands

when i heard those words being sung, it felt God was speaking to me directly.. for a moment i was stunned. On the other hand i was amazed.. yes it really did comforted me and no that teribble feeling didnt fade away right away.. but i guess i'm on the recovery process.. =)

and was also talking to someone last nite, and really, its hard to determine dat he/she is the one for you. like i said...the future is so uncertain...It is through time where we'll know whether we'll fit one another..

so to whoever you are, i'll continue praying dat when we eventually meet, we'll walk it well together.. =)

2010-05-01T09:11:00.002+08:00

we often fail to realise,
that we should be thankful for the things we have =)

so God, I thank You for everything that You have given me and for all the people that You place in my life.. =D

2010-04-24T23:28:00.004+08:00

Define being 'normal'

what it is like to be normal?
to feel normal..and to act normal?

i'm still trying to define normal..

...

but i think its subjective...somebody help me out here?
=.=

2010-04-15T22:40:00.003+08:00

1) the one thing u can challenge, Giving

2) an advice i gave to someone and to myself, you choose to trust, choose to love and choose to believe , its always all about the choices u make.. but no matter what it is, God will take u there.. =)

3) I still hate the weather!

4) I wanna go for a nice holiday

4) I thank God for you and you and you =)

2010-04-07T18:05:00.002+08:00

1) Clash of the titans was just pure bad... i went in with zero expectations and its still superly bad..

2) My lecturer was teaching on some stuff and she used the theory of being in a relationship.. she blushed and kept on smiling when explaining.. hmmm.. it explains something about her private life.. =D

3) Its mid week already and i'm feeling so unproductive at all.. Its just that i dont feel like doing anything at all.. maybe its the overly stressful and super busy past week...

4) feeling super lazy.....

2010-04-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

I'm waiting.. =)

2010-03-29T01:26:00.003+08:00

the right music really sets the mood for you to start think and really ponder on stuff..

sometimes the road ahead just seems so narrow or uncertain..
and it might also be covered in fog or mist..
but little did we all know.. all it takes is just that little baby step.. taking on a little step one at a time...
..and when nothing is longer visible or predictable... just look for that smiling One thats always been there with His loving arms wide open beside you watching over..
He leads.. and He always will... thank You for everything & i love You =)

2010-03-24T18:20:00.002+08:00

someone once told me... that i have to first be confident with what i want in life before actually pursuing it. This time round i though through alot..considered..prayed..and i'm finally sure that i want this. Hope that it all turns out well...

and on another note..i'm currently working on a final year research assignment where i just realise i have this super team mate that doesnt know how to sell his idea but doesnt wanna listen to my advice.. i advice him and he told me to worry about my part 1st.. in other words.. mind your own business.. =.='

I'm beginning to see how God has changed my life.. haha! God is amazing, He picks the wierdest situations in life to bring out the best. I thank God that when i actually reflect.. i can imagine what the old me will respond.. in other words.. ThankYouJesus!

....having said that.. i still have a long long journey ahead with me.. dont ask me why i suddenly... just...i dunno lah..God and His ways.. I shall wanna walk it well with God alongside guiding me =D

2010-03-18T23:42:00.003+08:00

hmmmm... i'm feeling very down for like the past week... i'm trying to really wonder whats causing this.. I sleep sufficiently, rested well, ate properly and also attend classes. So whats wrong? whenever i think of something...1st thing that auto answers for me is a negative statement or feeling....head's just filled with negativity and i'm trying to fight it...

maybe....maybe i need to go spend some time with myself and do lots of thinking, consideration and moment of reflection... need to do some soul searching maybe.. and i kept on getting like a thought or vision or whatever you call it that there is a test coming right up for me... like a life test.... whats all this about??? =/

2010-03-17T00:05:00.001+08:00

the pressure and workload begins! hope that i can finish this race well!
Godhelpmepleaseisomehowdontfeellikestudyingzzzzineedakickstarttoturnmyengineon....

2010-03-09T22:59:00.003+08:00

I was at this busy bus stop somewhere in kl and i started having thoughts about the stupid weather... the dusty air this this and the thats...

and suddenly i saw this indian guy walking across the street.. wearing a green cap and shirt with a tag around his neck.. he left leg was faced inwards and one of his arms was bent backwards and his head's best position is facing right...that he could not even turn his head to the middle and left.. he was struggling to walk across the super busy street.. at that moment.. the one thing i wish God could do was to heal him completely.. or at least when i touch him that he can be healed completely.. it was obvious he has a handicap person that works as some money collector for some toilet..

here i am complaning about how uncomfortable i am and there he is working and walking pass the street without needing help altho its super difficult.. and he even manage to board the bus without any help... standing in the midst of this busy and uncomfortable place having to witness this whole thing really shook me... so many things went through my mind and at the same time God reminded me to be thankful for what i already have... hmmm..interesting....

2010-03-05T20:12:00.003+08:00

....with all the photos and videos and stuff.. i have decided.. i wanna save money and travel all over the world... hmmmmm.....i wonder where should i start..?

2010-03-03T15:27:00.002+08:00

i waited for the bus and 20 minutes later the bus just came and drove pass wihout stopping =/
malaysian public transport.. malaysia boleh!

and God reminded me through zechariah 4:6 that I can do all thing through Christ that strengthes me even if i feel like quitting.. ok then i shall be a good boy then.. i'll continue... =)

Ps. 17 weekends!

.: And so it has finally started... :.

2010-02-27T17:41:00.003+08:00

and so it starts.. the new semester, the band and also the wait.. i'm kinda excited, the feeling of dunno what to expect and definitely anxiousness.. =)

All i know is many things are going to be different soon, people are going to change, i'm going to change, relationships will also change, some will grow stronger some will grow weaker, building structures, spiritually, mentally and also physically... hmmm... i hope its a change for the better...
All i ask is that i have enough patience, wisdom and God's guidance to go thru all of these situations.

I'm going to do the it God centred way... hope it works =P
and I miss you and You!! T_T!! but as long ur happy i'll be happy =D

adious for now.. i have a wonderful home cooked dinner downstairs waiting for me =D

2010-02-21T17:37:00.003+08:00

I get goose bumps watching this... i'll never see this song the same way again...

and i was just thinking that what if things happen in a different time frame.. will things be different now?

or even....will it still happen now?
God has the power to give and take away... and we should still sing and declare 'blessed be His name forever and ever and ever' ....no matter what circumstances we are in... tho its hard but i will learn to do this.. because He is God almighty that rules above all which i cant deny but to acknowledge =)

amazing...?

2010-02-18T10:03:00.002+08:00

Statement: i wish this moment can last forever....
Counter statement: snap a photo of this moment then...

hahaha! now thats creative thinking! not by me of course..i'm not as creative as that.. =P
....its just that when i reflect upon that statement... it kinda make sense man! photos carries memories that only those who are there during those 'moments' are able to see beyond just a photo..hmmmm... meaningful =)

2010-02-14T21:27:00.002+08:00

14th of February..... hmmmm..... its valentine's day aint it?
I've come to realise that valentine's day is just another day in a year, its the moments where you actually do something about it that can make any day more special than 14th of february.. Owh well, lets put it this way...everyday is special cause its a gift from God.. =)

It feels kinds wierd today, 3 ocassions in a same day.. dont know how to feel it all together at the same time..
Chinese New Year has just begun, and i'm already seeing signs of me overeating.. but thats a good thing right? hahaha! as long as i start exercising..
The hometown adventure begins in less than 10 hours time and i havent packed...hehehe~

hmmmm... i think i shall try to figure out what should i pack for tmr... so yeah....to call of you:

Happy Valentine's Day! For those who are celebrating... treasure it =) ...and to those that are valentine's-less, no worries.. your turn will come.. =)
Happy Chinese New Year! eat as much as you can as long as you exercise later!
Happy Holidays! kepada sekalian yang almost burnout, take this time to replenish!

.: babies are cute :.

2010-02-09T13:47:00.003+08:00

Babies and kids are just... adorable.. it doesnt matter if the colour is black, brown, yellow, or white.. they are just...... cute as long as they are nto annoying and spoiled.. =P

I'm so free now that i even had time to look at photos of babies on cute little kids on the net. No i'm not a ~~philidophia~~ phidophile. They are just so irrisistable.. haha!

2010-02-06T08:12:00.004+08:00

letting your emotions control you OR you take control over your emotions.

now thats a thought to ponder upon.....

2010-02-01T16:52:00.001+08:00

Patience... 2 more days and it will all be over.... =)

.: strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord :.

2010-01-30T23:45:00.002+08:00

I still remember the pain i felt..
how it really affected me but yet i supressed it all down and still show a smily face...Its amazing that after all that, till the point that i even considered it as a full stop to it already... tried so hard to forget it.. and the thing is.. I am still trying to understand how God can really change everything around.. maybe.. back then i wasnt listening? or was it me.... hmmmmm.. God ur really interesting.. so what do i do from here? whats next? I'll leave it all to God... I've learnt... Your will be done Lord... =)

2010-01-28T13:16:00.002+08:00

XD!
it has arrive!!!!! wahahaha!

.: Its been a while.... :.

2010-01-16T23:55:00.003+08:00

...i've almost forgotten what does it feel like to be free... to have my own time for myself,
maybe its cause i'm semi-using this work + responsibilities + keeping myself busy to avoid certain questions or stuff in life... hmmmm.. interesting..

I recently kinda took a break off stuff, work and etc, and it really helps me refocus, reshuffle life back together and also replenish, dont get me wrong its not that i'm facing a burnout or dying situation etc etc... it really helps me get a new perspective in how i see things or something like that. Reflected on alot of stuff that has happened and stuff thats happening... seems to be that i've changed more than what i've expected. I'm really not that simple as i think i am anymore... times where life is all about fun..fun... and hooray.. more fun!

.....really strikes me hard enough to really ask myself what i want in life.... will what i am today make what i will be in the future? am i going to still be this and that and this and that and the questions goes on...

i still remember talking to someone about me feeling numb to stuff in life, sometimes happy yes i'm happy, sad yes i'm sad, excited yes i'm excited.. but i feel like thats....erm... more to that... its more than just the hype of hapiness, sadness and interesting-ness? lol..

but the wierd thing is that.. i sometimes feel more for others than myself.. when i put myself in thier shoes.. i feel more for them than when i'm myself... wierd.. when i see others suffer.. i really do feel for them.. but why dont i feel for myself? =.='''''''''''''''''

.......maybe its true...... maybe its the situation where wounds were covered by another wound..and another and another.. but then again.. which is the first wound that sparked all these? too many till i cant remember... but having said all these... there's always an amazing God that ever exists.. one phrase from Him through a song is enough to comfort.

'He has walked the road before me,
He knows just how I feel.
When you feel there is not anyone,
Who understands your pain,
Just remember all of Jesus' suffering'

just.......... amazing.... really it is a reminder from Him saying,

'Son, life was never meant to be easy,
.............but fear not, for even when there is no one on this entire planet understands what you are going through, I do....be rest assured that I do...
......I love you'

~amen

2010-01-07T21:40:00.001+08:00

i know i'm gonna miss you..
but you know what? I'll see you around soon... when my time comes.. =)

2009-12-29T22:59:00.001+08:00

when the shadows of your past returns.. really... how will you react?

2009-12-21T22:30:00.004+08:00

Life is interesting, there are moments where it is colourful....

....moments where it is challenging...

....moments where it is shocking and saddening...

...but whatever or however it may be.... i'll use whatever talents or gifts i have....

....to serve Him

2009-12-06T00:35:00.003+08:00

I'm suddenly getting the hang of blogging again.. man...sometimes i feel that i tend to lose interest in anything after a while and then gain them back... o.0! i just hope it doesnt happen to girls =D

anyways.. i was just looking through whats coming up.... wowness!

its like..... i'll be super busy and crammed up with stuff starting next week... 2 performances, 2 christmas parties, 1 family trip, summer school commencing and also worship leading for christmas..all happening right before the end of the year! the thing is...its supposed to really stress me inside out but i'm kinda like emo-ing or feeling semi emo... dont ask me why or how...i cant answer it myself =.=

....which brings me to also realizing something new about myself.. i realise i'm the kinda person that when u assign me a task, you will really just have to trust me that i will complete it...coz i will really do my best to complete it, but the thing that really pisses me off is when i'm all about to complete the whole task given after all the hard work, humans start crawling into the picture and question my abilities and with the 'i dont trust you' and ' can he actually be trusted' kinda attitude... grrrrr... i almost.....like almost almost lose it when that happened..it really felt like 10000 volcano's is erupting. thank God i got hold of myself in time.. phews!

sigh....maybe.....maybe thats what that causes me to ber-emo la i think.. part of me feels that i'm so super right (which i am so sure i am because i know!) but yet i have to shut up due to respect. the other part of me feels guilty for firing up too soon.. whatever it is... challenging days are ahead of me.. i can sorta see it coming... just hope that i can overcome one after another without making any foolish mistakes.. God help me pls...

owh yeah.....here's one interesting newspaper article i found...

a perfect reason to look... hahahahahaha!

2009-12-05T02:35:00.002+08:00

holidays got a little boring and i'm suppose to be a little stressed out due to some stuff thats wayyy behind schedule.... and yes i know the statement above are contradicting but it doesnt matter =)

...so i ended up cooking... =D

......no i didnt burn the whole kitchen...

...and yes.. i really did prepare everything =)

there....
mix mix mix....

dip...dip... and more dipping!

there =)

ps. no cases of food poisoning was reported after consuming this... hehehehe

2009-11-30T00:42:00.003+08:00

two nine eleven two zero zero nine =)

praise God for my results...!!!!

anyways i was just wondering, or is it wondering me? that i'm starting to see.. like clearly see the opportunities of prayer.. maybe its God prompting me to pray or whatsoever.. or maybe i knocked my head somewhere and the loose screws got back into place... i feel that in every situation also now i cann see a need to pray.. o.0!

in a way it is exciting and in a way its also very wierd.. and apart from that, i'm also starting to look at stuff at a bigger point of view...zooming out of the 'now' and macrofied lens of mine.. i see what best for the bigger picture, for the future and whatsoever bla bla.. tho the other part of me still loves to whine and run round the bush.. subconciously the other part of me is feeling and seeing things this way... i'm grasping on the real joy that u should have when serving and not a sense of duty & etc.. its the i feel good when i am serving and i wont let the feeling of 'man failing me' hit me for now... maybe these are the good moments...... which i hope will last forever.. hmmmmm... ahh well.. this is yet another reason to thank God for too.. =)

2009-11-19T10:00:00.003+08:00

......ever wonder what it feels like to score super well in the toughest paper in your semester? feels good right? not for me... i scored super well for my final toughest paper with the help of an exact past year paper beside me with 100% correct answers.. reason beaing? it was a controlled paper in that open book exam and it should not have been released to us... tambah la lagi one of my lecturer realised what happen during the exam.. she came to me took the past year paper and then shakes her ehad and pats me on the back saying ' dont worry... teacher wont punish you.. its not your fault.. just focus on the exam and do your best' *compassionate look* then walks away... walaoeh! imagine that guilt and aweful feeling that hits me... tho i finish my 2 hour paper in 30 minutes.. i was emoing for the next 90 minutes T_T. so many things hit me... what if... my lecturer that released this paper got fired? what if this exam paper became void and everyone has to come back and retake another time? what if...? what if...? so yeah...right after the paper people were rejoicing shouting and jumping around.. but i just walked down and ber-emo standing next to the corridor watching the rain drops falling on the ground... GG now it sounds like some love story scene... =.=

so yeah...when i reflect upon this .. i thank God i still have the guilt feeling compared to the rest.. tho yes i will surely score super well for this subject... i didnt get that satisfaction of completing that paper with my own effort and there are going to be so many people will high distinctions. what to do right? some call it God's blessing.. but i see it from another pint of view as in it might a test from God... so what if i really will to just not use that past year paper and totally rely on my own abilities(which i did not really studied!)... what would the outcome be?

... but in the end i still used that paper la.... =.='

that aside.. now that exams are over.. time to focus on christmas~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
events! performances! Baby Jesus!!!!

2009-11-12T23:35:00.003+08:00

....its the hello exams period where life seems so......... boring... all about that few hours sitting in the freezing chamber, trying to crap everything that you remembered out on that few sheets of paper.....Ahhh well.. in the midst of all these stressful exams and stuff...

theres still moments like these where God's amazing creation makes me relax.... =)

on the other side of my life... i was dreaming about getting an EP-1.... and i just found out that EP-2 is launching end of this month... great.

2009-10-24T09:44:00.001+08:00

i want an AT2020...

sponsors....anyone?

2009-10-13T01:39:00.002+08:00

Watch this video...

beautifully imperfect..

2009-10-05T14:02:00.003+08:00

Now that voices is over,
(VOICES was... AWESOME.. can i say it again?....ok..... voices was AWESOME!!! Glory to GOD!)

and Vu nite is also over.....

(this one is real awesome! i won the grand price & best dressed couple! PTL! XD)

and...... BBQ party is over too.....

(well... this was super cool too! we smell like bbq in the end of the day! haha!)

I guess... whats left is....

BOOKS....

EXAMS.....

& MORE EXAMS...!!!

anyone wanna join me in the month of eating books? =/

2009-09-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

canto pop? =.='

2009-09-23T17:30:00.001+08:00

Pfffffft.. !@#$%^&*

.: Happy burfdae ginvereeee~ :.

2009-09-14T22:18:00.003+08:00

in case if you're wondering....

NO i am not dead...

its not that i quit blogging or this or that...

and YES i am superly busy......

and while ur reading this post... place ur mouse cursor HERE and click on IT

annnnd, its my lil sis 9th birthday today..!

thats the look of " mmmm.. nice chicken...but can i go for ice skating now? ......pls?"
...
......
..... cut the story short... was suppose to take her for ice skating but the skating ring was closed when we arrived... =.='

ahh well.... re-promised to bring her back somewhere next week during the raya holls... anyone wanna tag along? hehehehe~

okies... thats some for now.. be back soon!

PS. click HERE pls!

2009-09-01T18:26:00.003+08:00

the only photo taken at the retreat using best quality setting... all the other photos were taken off the 0.3 megapixel settings in my phone camera.... T_T!!!!!!

ahh well.. this is one nice photo anyway... =)

2009-08-28T12:49:00.001+08:00

Malacca was fun! more photos on facebook =)

2009-08-24T21:47:00.003+08:00

Every reason to thank God for His awesomeness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now.. everybody say ' Praise The Lord! '

yea..i know i look stupid in this photo.. but who cares? its the hero beside me that's the highlight of this photo =)

2009-08-18T16:30:00.000+08:00

The most unique clue ever in an amazing race... =S

2009-08-14T17:23:00.003+08:00

If i havent been updating frequently.. it means i am soh super busy... everyday i have some extra thinggi happening other than classes... walao eh!

Went for jeng's 21st birthday last sat.. i almost got lost in his mansion.. =.='

we play cards after cards and more card games.. lol!
some drank only water and got drunk....yeahh.. these two were water drunk..

the half drunk-ed gorgi

The crowd.. haha! we we're like still playing cards even when it was cutting cake time =S

Jogoya! with mummy and little sis! haha!
My now top of the list fav... scallops baked with some tasty sauce.. think i had like 8 or 10 of them.. haha!

king crab!!! too bad jeng couldnt find his vip card T_T

oyster photo for rach.. lol

the messy table..

....in the end of the day? you end up with one happy mummy and a half drunked sister.. haha!

joke of that night "ko, why when i take the orange juice... taste so funny wan?"

i later realised she went ot the alcohol counter and took that orange colour drink! hahaha! not only that.. she took back the so called blackcurrant drink too.. LOL!

The K's bought thier new phone.. haha! managed to snap the action of his 1st photo... i wonder why is it not faced towards leishia... hmmm.. scandalous =P

2009-08-10T21:48:00.003+08:00

you know those moments where you actually feel nothing and there's like just numbness and emptiness? its like you've pulled the plug from the 'emotions' & 'feelings' plug point. maybe someone *looks up dreamily* is trying to say something...

.: My College :.

2009-08-05T01:23:00.004+08:00

who says college is all boring and stuff? well.. mine is interesting.. haha!

who ask them dare to do it in broad daylight? not my fault shooting this video.. the lecturer was a little... hahaha... not interesting...

.: Beautiful Ending :.

2009-08-02T22:37:00.003+08:00

Oh, tragedy
Has taken so many
Love lost cause they all
Forgot who You were
And it scares me to think
That I would choose
My life over You
My selfish heart
Divides me from You
It tears us apart

So tell me
What is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?

Oh, why do I Let myself let go
Of hands that painted the stars
And hold tears that fall?
And the pride of my heart
Makes me forget
It's not me but You
Who makes the heart beat
I'm lost without You
And dying from me

So tell me
What is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?

Will my life
Find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful

At the end of it all I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all I wanna be in Your arms

So tell me
What is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?
Will my life
Find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful

So beautiful

my ending ..... is beautiful.. what about yours? =)

2009-07-31T00:48:00.002+08:00

Wierd stuff do happen....
well.. lets start with the not so wierd stuff

every week is a coffee bean week... at least for the past 3 months and still going.. so if i'm cashless u kinda sorta should have known why...

Sheperd's pie... i now realised that mutton/lamb is an acquired taste.. just like durians.. haha!

whats this already? owh.. andy's ice cream.. lol!

and now the wierd stuff...

i was going through my recently taken photos.... and i found a very scandalous photo =.='

trust me.. if you see it.. the same word will be coming outta your mouth especially when that photo's in my phone.. luckily i deleted it! man.... could have mad some cash outta that photo XD

the wierd breakfast egg..

yeaps... thats my egg for breakfast.. it decided to act cute..

trust me.. its adorable.. haha!

and finally... i have flies mating aroudn my house... and yes i think they are mating cause the one on to was like um... humping? thing is... insects mate like that wan meh? o.0??

.: A week filled with food and drama's :.

2009-07-25T09:46:00.004+08:00

Lets see... we normally do the 'post according to date and when does it happen etc'
I'm doing it the other way round now..

Friday,
went to the deli somewhere in college, food prepared by semester 1 culinary arts students.
my pan mee cost Rm5.90. Which... also at the same time means... i only hav RM6 in my wallet...

Friday morning before lunch,
lectures... =.='
its just the 1st week and i'm already bored of em....

friday morning, the lecture before that boring lecture... its still another boring lecture.. =.=
well.. i was scribbling... XD

Thursday night...

daddy came home at 10.50pm at night and i'm guessing he was emo-ing.. he came to me and said : wei.. order pizza..

I gave him that o.0 look and proceed ordering it online and order submitted at 11.58pm.. haha! 2 mins before they close!

yeah i know.. its delicious... haha! emo dad makes you fat!

Tuesday,

Bought popeyes back for my mum...

owh yeahhh... popeyes is the next big thing in town.. beats KFC and Marrybrown! who eats marrybrown anyways? =.='

went watch ice age and has dinner with her...

yummy the food was good... especially when you dont have to pay anything XD

non halal...

Monday,

1st day of classes... we went to pyramid again =.=

Sam... well... just trying to make the baristas life at starbucks harder..haha!

expensive lunch... !@#$%^&

you pay RM17++ for a plate of soften maggi mee with ketchup... dont ever order the RM16.90 set lunch at italiannese

ahh ok..give them the credit for this.. at least the soup was kinda okay..

and finally.....

I found one classic macha shot of Mr. k in my phone.. haha

2009-07-23T00:53:00.004+08:00

when i thought everything was going super fine..that i can thank God for such a great time and blessings and everything thats going so smoothly for me.... and just one fine day when i walked into the house... and i finally understood.......... no mood to type the rest anyways.. those that really care to read this.. pray for my family... pretty pls? godhelpme

2009-07-20T18:31:00.004+08:00

Be careful little eyes what you see

It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings

Be careful little feet where you go

For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away

It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray

Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid

When you give yourself away

People never crumble in a day

It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade

Be careful little ears what you hear

When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near

Be careful little lips what you say

For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away

It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray

Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid

When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

The journey from your mind to your hands

Is shorter than you're thinking

Be careful if you think you stand

You just might be sinking

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away

It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray

Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid

When you give yourself away

People never crumble in a day

Daddies never crumble in a day

Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what see

Oh be careful little eyes what you see

For the Father up above is looking down in love

Oh be careful little eyes what you see

Blame whenever we can, push it away whenever we could. Thats what almost everyone would do, find someone to blame when something goes wrong.... hmmmm...after listening to this song carefully, I'm like a lil bit shaken...a reminder to myself that i better check myself before even reaching the thought of finding someone to blame... things never crumble in a day.......... its all part of a slowing fading and crumbling effect...... now then... what about you?

.: gemuk? :.

2009-07-17T00:18:00.004+08:00

IF i continue doing this i will surely end up like this...

but.... but...

how to resist all these....?

you tell me... how???? i told myself i wont over eat some more... =.='

end up i still give in T____T!

luckily holidays are over... which also means hello sunway!

and ... just last night my mom was saying this to me all the sudden

" jap u better go clean up your table.. before i "clean" it for you..."

...people got thier workstation... i also have.... but people's one look like this

you wanna know how mine looks like.....?

jeng jeng jeng... patut la my mom said she wanna help me 'clean' up.. sure half the stuff gone.. =.='

.... an hour later.... *smiles*

.... lets hope it stays this way for more than 2 weeks... hehehe~

2009-07-16T01:44:00.001+08:00

nothing much... just mouth watering photos.. XD

2009-07-13T20:18:00.003+08:00

a misinterpreted message and the creativity in imagination of a human's mind can cause quite a havoc.. =P

2009-07-12T02:20:00.001+08:00

SOOOoOooOooooo many 'what if's' in my head.... shooo shoooo! get out~~~~

2009-07-09T12:03:00.001+08:00

i'm going to try to see things as simple as i can and try my best to be innocent and naive....... mann...will i ever be able to do that anymore? o.0

.:D ol' adventures of gasing hill :.

2009-07-04T21:23:00.008+08:00

Once upon a time in a land that should not be so far way,
16 brave souls happen to walk into one another and decided to wander into the deeep and not so mysterious gasing hill.

On the day itself, one of the 16 brave souls overslept. How..... aweeesome. Well, ignoring the part how he got up and prepared himself with the might armour and a bottle of precious water in 5 minutes...owh wait.. did i mention he was a he?
anyway.. all 16 of them gathered in a not so secret location somewhere in the no where land. Split themselves into 4 groups, evenly spread out according to weight, height and also how funny they were in person.

With everything well prepared, and the brightly shining sun ressembling a good sign and poviding them with energy, all 4 groups enter into thier high tech travelling vessel and departed for the mysterious gasing hill.

.... along the horizon, they even discovered the long lost forgotten and ignored village. Truly.... ignorable.....

because we were travelling at 1/12532452433 of light speed, everything seems so superly slow, notice that you can even count how manystrands of hair the rider of this travelling vessel has.

*kling klang bing bang boom whheeee waaaa*

the search for the mysterious gasing hill can be told in one sentence, here we go:

the 16 souls started travelling south along the wierd flowing river and not long after that they got lost eventually and started convincing themselves that they are not lost because they could still hear the sun shining when suddenly one of them almost tripped and another was wearing a very long loin cloth that it touches the ground and it now serves as a protection for her feet plus another soul nearly fainted and got into a very bad mood that the rest of the 15 soul started worrying that the 16th brave soul's heart might start palpitating that they started slowing down and as they slow down they came upon a semi small swamp which then all the sudden one brave soul became not so brave and started imagining things in the swamp which causes her to start crying and the rest of them trying to balance themselves on this narrow plank and along the way this particular brave soul almost tripped like 7 or 8 times which was super funny and entertaining for the other brave soul travelling behind
which then cause him to start waving and smillig at other life forms wandering in the great forest of gasing hill which then caused the other jealous brave souls to tease him which caused another brave soul to start farting and the rest divided into two that one group was whinning about how mysterious the forest was and the other half wondering what to whine about but in the end... all 16 brave souls managed to wander through the mysterious gasing hill getting out of it safely only to realise... mannnnnn...... we're all hungry!

....the end~

....its obvious that i am like.... super free... XD

2009-06-30T15:13:00.001+08:00

Well,

watch this =P

Edit: sometimes things in life can get superly unfair... I've always been the 'its okay....' but this time i guess i kinda like burst the bubble!! ...without showing or reacting of course... arghhhhhhhhhhhhh! ahh well... really thank God for the video.... breathe jap.... breathe... . . . .

.: food, food and more great food! :.

2009-06-29T11:35:00.002+08:00

yesterday, we had.....
DURIANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahhhhhhh!!! XD

yes, zohan was there with us.

and when i got home, there was this plate of goodie waiting for me! wahahahahahaha!

hmmmm... i like feel like spilling my heart out... too bad i cant do it here T_T.. ahh well... enough of whinning liao... doesnt really matter how or what i feel, just press on and take joy in everything i'm doing!!!! go go go jap!

2009-06-25T10:14:00.004+08:00

Sunday:

Andy came to church.

Church decided to purchase the new building.

Monday night:

Someone tempted me with burgers and dad called from taipan asking if we needed supper

Result: Chicken Mcdeluxe

Pre-exam celebration:

megan fox... i mean transformers!

actually watched this one day before my exam.. it was the premier for this movie..hehehe~

After exam celebration:

Jamming for 3 hours non stop! wheeee~

.....now what?

2009-06-21T01:16:00.005+08:00

too much coffee with a runny nose and a super duper hot weather causes my heart to beat irregularly... =.='

and while my heart was beating not so normally, enjoy some photos...

first,
the "eeyer, very fat lo...!!" photo

Second,
the "nehh..this is how u get a hawt girl's attention" photo..

and finally,
the "hi, can you help us settle our bills pls?" photo

okays, enuff for now la... =P

2009-06-14T16:20:00.001+08:00

Crabs? =P
ahhh....now back to eating books again =.=!

2009-06-09T20:50:00.001+08:00

Church camp is over and exam's in 2 days time.. I'll be back...after the exams.... thats if i survive T_T

in the meantime... enjoy this photo.. priceless expressions! hehehe~

2009-06-02T21:25:00.001+08:00

ouch.... man....my lil sis is sure strong... =.='

2009-05-31T00:39:00.001+08:00

this my friend, is how you do it..

2009-05-28T01:16:00.000+08:00

hmmmm... i got a lil bored.. =P

.: Super Shooter :.

2009-05-25T23:06:00.002+08:00

Bunch of us went to the arcade in sunway pyramid while waiting for our movie.. haha!

we bumped into one of the funniest moment of the week.. for mine at least =P

check it out!

2009-05-22T22:50:00.002+08:00

super hot weather remedy: cool refreshing pineapple juice!

teh sister is like not so happy coz mum said ' ginveree.. no ice... ' ahahahaha!

2009-05-18T22:02:00.001+08:00

house m.d has ended, supernatural has ended, smallville has ended, heroes has ended, even prison break has ended... what am i gonna do for the next few weeks/month laaaaa? ='(

2009-05-14T00:09:00.002+08:00

assignments drives people nuts... =/

.: Inilah hari ibu 2009 :.

2009-05-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

there are many ways to celebrate mother's day..

this year its not just some normal round table gathering cina dinner style.. hehe~

yes there is that normal cake...

this year.. we gathered at my grandmother's place and had bbq, steamboat and banyak lagi la..

adalag kao kao alot ketam and udang and sotong and more what else? alot la.. all home made.. haha the best part was there was this.......!

hohohohoho! lobster! its the D.I.Y lobster... bbq till its cook, pour some salt water on it and butter! wohooooo~ AMAZING~

jealous? saliva dripping? yes you should! happy mother's day to all the mummies out there! XD

2009-05-08T18:22:00.003+08:00

Went for platelet donation last tuesday..
they accidentely adjusted the amount of anti-coagulant wrongly.. ended up my whole body feels numb... talk also hard =.=

using the new machine.. apparently they drew more than 50 cycles of blood from me.. giler banyak kali...

in the end.. i manage to tahan through the whole thing even with a 60% of my body feeling numb... hehehehe~

2009-05-02T10:04:00.002+08:00

forget about the rest of the photos form Lang Tengah 1st, i'm just too lazy to hand over my thumb drive to get em.... =/

neways went for church outing at Sepang Gold Coast yesterday, yeaps... beach again.
its not bad actually. water's less toilet waste water smell as it used to be. and swimming is made exciting because there will be jelly fishes as huge as your palm and more swimming with you in the same waters. Sun's directly above your head as usual. and, now i'm burnt again. =.='
dah la havent fully recover from the sun burn from Lang Tengah, now kena again.... way to go la Japheth.......

2009-04-30T02:02:00.003+08:00

.....I will live to carry your compassion,
to love a world that's broken,
to be your hands and feet,

and I will give with the life that I've been given,
and go beyond religion to see the world be changed,
by the power of Your Name,
the power of Your Name...

Grrrr....

2009-04-29T17:23:00.002+08:00

I rushed to college today only to realise my classes are canceled for the day =.='
crapppppp........... pffffft

2009-04-27T03:47:00.001+08:00

i....

*blank*

Laaaaaaaaang Tengah

2009-04-25T01:24:00.006+08:00

[group shot]

Lang Tengah was breath taking, hot, breezy, beautiful, amazing,super duper fun, ...wah..i better stop... hehehe~

i guess i'm not really gonna blog about it... i'll let the photos do the talking... =)

more photos uploaded on my facebook... & i'm still in the process of getting hold of the whole collection...sabar ya~ =/

for the moment, here are some photos taken using the cheapo underwater camera.. =P